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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Mmmm.. was almost late for school today.. i didn't wake up late.. nt mi fault.. i woke up normal time.. left house at normal time.. BUT i waited for the bus like abt 20mins... goSh.. den wen i reach the other bus stop to change bus to bedok interchange, it was abt 6.30 liaox.. and i'm still at tampines.. so i had no choice but to tk a cab to school.. ahhhhhh!!!

can sumone wakey mi up at 5.00am everiday??? make sure i dun go back to sleep after tt... so no matter how long i wait for the bus.. oso wont be like today soo late.. blahx!

i guessed i'm movin on.. no more cryins.. xD.. so i'm single and available?? dunno.. haha.. but if got ani handsome, cute, macho, carin, understandin, fun-lovin, sporty, blablabla.. intro them to mi!!!! haha..

i'm juz lookin forward to the day wen my Os are over.. dunno wat izzit gonna be like..but i'm juz hopin tingz will turn out the way i wan.. though i dunno whether will it be.. but i'm juz tinkin that it definitely will.. even if itz not.. i'm still gonna tink tt it will.. sounds like i'm deceivin myself.. perhaps.. but i cant afford to be distracted now.. so.. ya.. even if the endin iz gonna opposite of wat i wan.. let mi realise it after my Os.. xD

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9:37 AM

school was rather alritEz.. xcept for chinese period.. keep dozin off till the last 15min den was awake.. kakax.. he was tokin abt the chinese oral tingy.. no one was listenin to him.. literally no one.. coz i wasn't listenin oso... xp.. but my O'lvl chinese oral iz next fri!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!! wo yao jiang biao zun hua yu le.. muahahaha.. other den that nothin much liaox.. BORING!!!!

guess how stupid i am???................................................................... veri stupid!!! kekex.. had gastric pain yday.. since like early afternoon?? haha.. but i dunno iz gastric pain aRhxz.. tot juz sum normal tummy ache.. so i didn't realli bother.. until abt 10+ lidddat wen i reached home and the pain became unbearable.. took sum panadol and went to sleep.. hopin tt an early nite would ease the pain.. but i was rather wrong.. haha.. coz i couldn't sleep due to the pain till abt 1+.. *blaHx*

tml iz wednesday!!!!!!! half the week iz almost gone..

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9:07 AM

school reopen liaox.. quite ok laRxz.. heeZ.. at least i didn't had time to tink abt tingz..

i screwed my chem test!!!!!!!!!! goSh.. dun even need to mention abt phy aRhxz.. screw chem liaox.. how much betta can phy be siax..

today iz 27th of June.. 27 used to be an important date to mi.. 27 27 27 27 27!!!!! now.. itz juz a date to remember...

YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!

we ended ours hols wit it officially...

they finished it without mi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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1:17 PM

ah!!!!!!! tml school reopen liaox!!!!! actualli i dunno i should happi or sad laRxz.. but tml got two test liaox!!!! i dowan!!!!!! boohoo~!!!

i'm happi tml sch reopen coz i can occupy myself wit all the work.. den i wont be so sad & keep tinkin.. but i'm sad coz i'll be stuffed wit all the work!!!!!!!! goSh~!!!!

btw.. yday nite met up wit angel.. i sooo damn bloody late.. soooo sorry.. heeZ... den on my way aRhxz.. i met diz couple damn idoitic one lehx.. den they abt 30++yrs old de.. it started like diz.. they were huggin each other veri tightly.. *the lady tapped my shoulder*
man: we pity u aRhxz.. kena squash until like pancake liddat..
*i juz smiled back*
man: we heart pain for ur hubby aRhxz
woman: she dun hav hubby laRxz.. she so young..
mi: i'm onli a teenager.. not married..
man: den boifriend laRxz..
mi: i oso no boifriend
man: sure notz.. u keep sms-sing.. muz be boifriend one..
mi: i messagin my girlfriends mahx..
man: aiyoz.. u lesbian aRhxz..
woman: girls hav a lot of female friends de mahx..
man: den wen u meet they u'll hug hug them and kiss kiss them laRxz..
*and they two juz kissed infront of mi*

luckily after tt i reached my stop liaox.. bastard siax.. luckily i dun hav the urge to cry aRhxz.. if not spoil my mood out... den i met ANGELINE!!! muahahaha.. haven met her for abt 1yr ++ liaox.. soooo long!!! den we shop shop around den tk neoprint... heeZ.. den we went for dinner.. but i didn't realli had the appetite.. so i had a chawanmushi.. but it sux.. *yucks* =xX.. by the time we finished and wanna continue shoppin, the shops all closed liaox.. =xX.. heeZ.. pai sei aRhxz angel..

den wen on way home at tamp interchange met choon guang.. haha.. haven met him for abt 2yrs plus liaox.. den he juz sent his gf home.. and sooo nice of him.. he offered to accompany mi to tk the bus to my hse there den he go back interchange.. heeZ.. den i not so lonely.. xD.. yday nite quite tired.. but there are ppl who sms mi till 3 plus den i fall asleep.. heeZ.. veri tired..

today!!!!!!!! LAST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLS!!! went husna house.. wanted to copy homework.. but in the end those tt i neva do one they oso neva do/neva bring.. so i didn't copy much oso.. after tt went tm.. wanted to cut my hair.. but the shop closed liaox!!! it was onli 7pm!!! *blahx* den we went hagen daze & we had our fun of fondue.. yummy!!!

and the HOLS has ended!!!!! aRhxz!!!!!!!!!!!!

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12:00 PM

boohoo~!! yday neva go for dinner wit mummy.. coz daddy not free.. dunno where iz he oso.. wateva laRxz.. which oso means i managed to skip my dinner.. i missed another 3 meals yday.. xp.. stayed home whole day to copy amath.. haha.. i'm left wit eng & studin for mon's test..

i cant stand my bloody idotic damn farkin bro.. he noes i'm in a bad mood.. my whole family.. even his gf noes.. and i managed to not cry the whole of yday.. but wy muz he make mi cry.. wy muz he mention all those tingz. and made mi cry to sleep.. farker..

my lifestyle iz changed be'coz of him now.. other then work & sleep.. there's nothin left for mi to.. wen he'z still around.. wen he'z around, he'll chat wit mi, sms mi, go for movie, go shoppin.. blablabla.. but now i'll be juz stuck at home whole day around.. i guess weekdays iz gonna be find.. iz the weekends tt i realli have to overcome.. and wen itz sleepin time.. wen i cant sleep, he'll chat wit mi till i get sleepy.. but now.. wen i cant sleep, my tears will accompany mi till i sleep..

and now u ignore mi like i dun exist..

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1:50 AM

itz realli over.. there's no more turn back at all..

guess i've to realli get over it and give up.. but how easy can tt be.. he has already occupied my mind and my heart.. i noe time will help mi to forget him.. but how long will tt takes?? b'coz of diz breakup.. i noticed i've not eaten for 3days.. and i'm like a panda now.. goSh..

since now both of us are single.. and he'z available?? i'm not.. i wish tt tingz can go back to wat it was like in the past.. i seriously hope tt would happen.. but i dunno whether he'z willin to a not.. i realise i've said a lot of stupid tingz to him these few dayz.. and i realli wish to tk them back.. can i??

but if i realli gotta tink on the bright side.. there will not be anione who's gonna nag at mi to eat my three meals.. no one to bring mi out for the fattenin supper.. which means i can go back on my diet!!!! den i can slim back!! kekex.. den oso no one to nag at mi to sleep early.. blablabla.. can tell i zi wo an wei laRxz.. but no choice.. heeZ..

i tink i've cry too much.. or izzit coz i neva eat.. or izzit i dun hav enuff slp.. i keep havin difficulty to breath.. and there's alwaz a tite feelin at my cheast there.. i dunno wat to do and how to prevent it..

..our past memories...

aniway.. today iz my mummy's bday!!! i gonna treat her dinner.. hehe.. so i suppose i will eat tonite.. i'll try to..

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3:22 AM

i'm the 5th couple to break up diz hols.. 5mths and 21days.. 176days.. [sum mths have 31, 30 or 28 days]..

u've realli taught mi a lot a lot of tingz.. so much so tat i cant list out.. but the veri last ting u've recap mi wit iz how it feels to be heart broken.. after soo mani months of pamper, love, care & concern.. i've already forgotten watz a broken heart, how it feels to be heart broken.. but u've once again taught mi.. it realli realli hurts.. and i mean it literally.. i realli can feel the pain.. or izzit coz of mi??

love iz blind.. wy?? coz once a person falls in love and his/her heart iz broken, he/she will cry like crazy.. i'm one of those.. u can cry till u go blind.. i suppose tt xplain love iz blind.. i literally cried frm 10 - 3.. mite wonder wat happened after 3.. but i've got sumone to keep mi company frm 3am.. and thaNx to diz person i stopped cry.. xD... but after the company.. everiting goes back to normal..

i tried to sleep.. slept for half and hour..

the 1st ting i tot of wen i woke up iz u.. and i cant help it but cry.. idiotic bitch u, evelyn hoh.. all u noe iz cry cry cry.. i seriously couldn't control it..

wy do u tink tt the cause of mi fallin iz u.. wy izzit tt till now u still dun see tt itz u who've been helpin mi for for the past 8 - 10 months.. all these while, wen i fall, u'll guide mi to stand up once again.. but wy izzit diz time round u’re turning ur back off and leave mi juz liddat.. especially at diz time wen u noe i'll fall millions of time.. and so now u xpect mi to stand up on my own again.. if u tink itz possible, thaNx for the faith u have in mi.. but i believe i’ll be crawlin to my Os..

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1:13 AM

i slept at 3.30 diz mornin.. and got woken up by my bro at5.. *blaHx* and onli managed to get back to sleep at abt 7.30..

caught a lot like love yday nite.. got a double date.. loLx.. met up wit eVie around evenin to shop.. neva buy much.. but i gotten diz little bag frm m)phosis which i've been wantin to get for sumtime.. and i finished all my cash.. haha.. had to withdraw summore.. kekex.. xp..

the show quite nice aRhxz.. but iz both of them wen break out wit their respective partner den find each other de.. wy diz hols soo mani breakup aRhxz.. letz see.. i tink got abt.. 4 couples..?? or perhaps addin one more.. 5.. wateva..

i'm goin sentosa tml!!! i wanna TAN!!! i'm not happi wit my last tan.. got tan like no tan like tt.. though can see a BIT BIT of tan lines.. haha..

my eye hurts frm all the cryin and late nitez..

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5:34 AM

i slept at.....5??? woke up at....10??? i couldn't sleep at all.. but still managed to sleep lohx..

my eyes are swollen.. i'm in no mood to do aniting.. i've got loads of work to do.. i've got loads of work to catch up wit.. i've got loads and loads of tingz to do!!!! but i 've got no mood..

the worse way to miss someone is when he's sitting right next to you, yet you know you can't have him

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3:32 AM

my hand doesn't hurt animore.. coz sumting hurts even more..

the worse way to miss someone is when he's sitting right next to you, yet you know you can't have him

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7:30 PM

went to the doc liaox.. she say no volleyball for mi for 3weeks.. boohoo~! den as far as possible dun use my right hand to do tingz.. but i right hander lehx.. den she say can tell i right hander coz my right hand bigger den mi left hand.. (x_X''').. kekex..

den 1st week sch reopen how i write?? *blahx* den 1st day got two full paper test lehx.. can sumone replace mi and help mi ritExz??? xD.. kekex.. *i wish...*

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6:43 AM

i stayed home the whole day.. and my hand hurts like crazy.. even wen i type & use the mouse.. so i can onli use one hand to type.. *bleahx*

wanted to go to doc wan.. but i too lazy.. den by the time i wanna go already too late liaox.. so i intend to go tml.. see how laRxz.. kekex..

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2:55 PM

mon met up wit my p sch frenzy.. WEE!!! all changed soo much.. kekex.. got b'cum more handsome de.. onli one of them.. xp.. muahahah.. den went to catch mr & mrs smith.. quite a gd show.. i definately missed my primary school lives.. and all the happenings.. especially all the free time u get to hang out wit ur frenz on weekdays after school.. i missed all of them..

Mmmm... went sentosa today!!! WEE!!! wit sarah, hui & husna.. met quite a no. of ppl.. at harbour front or at sentosa itself.. met mr teo[band alumni], yuhanis & bel, julian, yan rui & my deaR.. kekex.. den played volleyball.. heeZ.. i sprain my wrist.. OUCH!!!! den i wanna tan de.. den the other three dowan.. but in the end they got tan but i did not!!!! i dunno wy!!!! aRhxz.. after tt went to watch musical fountain.. soo beautiful.. den went newton for dinner.. yummy!!!

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2:50 PM

WEE!!!! i went shoppin today!!!! lalala!!!

had a one period lesson today.. boring.. den came home and wait for deaR to fetch mi.. xp.. and we went ikea.. kakax.. but a bit bit lost way.. coz someone's sense of direction not veri veri good.. though iz quite gd laRxz.. xD.. and den we went town!!! and start my shoppin!!!

not say tt i bought a lot of tingz.. but at least betta den last week.. kekex.. got quite a no. of tingz i wan.. muahahahx.. den abt 9++ 10 had to go off liaox.. coz deaR goin to pub.. the cold cold pub.. -17 degrees one.. one day i will wanna go there see see siax.. quite cool lehx.. heeZ..

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2:10 PM

yday i neva go sch!!! kekex.. overslept.. *bleaHx* stayed home the whole day.. i packed my home... muahahahah.. itz been a mess since the mid yr started.. my notes are all over my home.. i hav my diff sub corners.. xD.. amath corner.. emath corner.. phy corner chem corner... etc etc.. lala... and i started my homework.. esp my TUITION HOMEWORK.. but i've got extention for the deadline.. but that includes both my amath & emath.. boo~!

tell u aRhxz.. *YES!! ITZ YOU!!!* u betta mark/check my work aRhxz.. if not i kill u aRhxz.. wo xin xin ku ku zuo de ni bu check.. [translate for u: i work so hard but u dun check.. xp]
noe hoRxz.. my 16yrs of life aRhxz.. diz iz my veri veri 1st yr havin tuition lehx.. wo ba wo de di yi chi xian gei le ni.. blax~!

today.. lesson.. bornin.. all math related de.. kuku.. phy.. den amath.. den emath.. sianz 1/2.. after tt straight away came home.. den nothin lohx.. start on homework de.. but iz school de.. muahahahah...

Mmmm.. deng asked to go skatin on sat.. wit JEEZ.. been like months since i went out wit them.. after wateva had happened.. actualli i dun realli noe wat happen laRxz.. budden.. frankly i tot we will neva eva hang out together again.. i do miss those days.. i realli wished to hang out wit u guyz on diz sat.. and even other days.. so i'm ponderin on diz sat..

i cant wait for fri.. i wanna shop shop shop!!! i did not shop enough last sun.. i ONLY bought three tingz.. goSh!!! i miss my shoppin partner..

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9:50 AM

finally................ step down on sat le!!!!! have been waitin tt day for ages manx.. kekex.. den tried sum other instrument.. =p.. i'm stuck wit saxaphone!!!! have waited for 4 damn bloody yrs!!! heeZ.. oso tried french horn & thrombone onli.. tink nothin else.. heeZ..

went to sarah lu's hse to watch vcd until abt 12+ 1.. den went orchard's coffe club to eat mud pie.. reached home abt 4am.. kekex.. wen on my way home quite sleepy noe.. but cannot sleep.. worry for my safety.. if u noe wat i mean.. kekex..

sunday.. went shoppin!!! but nothin much aRhxz.. coz didn't realli get aniting.. den went to watch hitchiker's guide to galaxy.. not bad laRxz..

today.. lesson lohx.. sooo god damn borin!!!!!!!! aHhHhhh!!!!! i still got soooo much homework to finish... den i still got my TUITION homework.. there's a reason wy i caped the word.. =p

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7:16 AM

Mmmm.. haven been bloggin for quite sumtime.. borin.. mani tingz had happened..

24/05/05.. a day of sorrow.. neva will we forget that day.. at the viewin gallery.. seen u for the one last time.. none of us could control our feelins.. even though everiting was over.. deep inside our heart.. it hurts like crazy.. rest in peace..

been muggin... muggin.. and muggin for 30/05/50.. chinese O'level.. and the paper is over.. i dun realli have a good feelin abt it.. but we'll see..

june hols... 4wks?? nahx.. 2wks.. but out of the 14 days.. i tink i gotta spend at least 5days muggin.. goSh.. and i've gotten myself a private tuition teacher.. kekex.. for all subject xcept combine humans & chi..

GREAT SINGAPORE SALES!!!! WEE!!! i'm gonna shop like crazy.. like mad!!!! i muz shop and shop and shop till i drop dead!!!

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2:50 AM