*GORGEOUS*

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

aHhhHhHhhHh!!!!!!!!!! i've been havin hip-cups for the past one hour....

today was rather ooooooooookk... chem test was rather do-able.. everi teacher iz sayin the same ting before they leave the class.. "today iz my last day teachin u all before prelims.. so gd luck for ur prelims.." and this shows how near my prelims are..

had a great day after sch with my girlies.. u galz rawk my world! x)

i didn't wan tat to happen..

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1:07 PM

was strugglin whether to go to happihappi carnival.. and my saviour came at 7am which stopped mi from goin.. kekex.. brian.. i tink i should stop myself from goin to places where . . . . . . . . .
afterall itz realli the time...

zao zhi jing ri, he bi dang chu..

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1:47 PM

i'm up at 9am on a saturday mornin!!!! i'm gonna mug & mug & mug for the whole of today.. and i shall hang & chill out tonite...

we're like 5days away from our 1st prelim paper.. 70days away from out 1st O'level theory paper.. tatz real fast..

i'm hopin tat we can turn back time so tat we can have more time to study and relax.. on another hand.. i hope tat the Os will be over soon & we can realli fang xia xin zhong de DA shi tou.. kekex.. but tt wil mean tt everione iz gonna go their separate ways soon.. which i neva wan tt to happen..

packed my drawer the other day.. and i'd read all the letters.. all the love letter.. kekex.. encouragemnt letter from teachers.. last but not least.. those letters which i receive wen graduatin from p. sch.. it juz seems like i received those letters yday.. but i'm gonna graduate frm sec. sch soon..

sumone once said these: "secondary sch life iz more memorable then p. sch although itz juz 4yrs.." i tink itz sooo true.. in p. sch, we're juz little kids.. all we did was study & play.. the word "stress" didn't exist until mayb in p6.. but in sec. sch, there're sooo mani tingz.. relationship problems?? those who has it onli have themselves to blame.. and stress started since sec1.. "wat if i fail?? i'll be kicked out of sch".. u neva hear diz statement in p. sch.. but u'll often hear it in sec. sch.. last but not least.. the FRIENDS... definately friends in sec sch goes thru more tingz together.. all these, i tink it has to do wit the word "MATURITY"...

itz the 27th of the month again..

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12:37 AM

time iz flyin realli fast.. even faster then the speed of the rocket.. half the week iz gone.. and we have onli 2dayz for nxt week.. before we realise it.. itz the PRELIMS.. and cums the biG fat Os...

time iz passin realli fast and i'm detestin it.. how i wish i can turn back time and enjoy more wit my frenz.. yes.. there'll be lotz of time for mi to enjoy after Os.. but sumhow, itz juz gonna be different.. everione will be goin their separate ways.. i wanna go back to the beginnin of 2005..

guess i'm realli stress now.. and i have new "FRIENDS"- my biG biG PIMPLES!!! aHhHhHH!!!! shoooo~

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2:37 PM

i screwed up both my physics and chem practical test.. aRghzx!!!! i should drop out of school manx.. no hope for mi.. tml'z test iz gonna be the same i guess..

he and she was rite.. she moved on livin happily.. he was consolin her to get him out of her mind.. she tinks that they are rite..

i finalli had a chat wit u.. itz been like a year since we last chatted yeahx.. i missed those times..

5am earli in the mornin, u were preparin breakfast for mi.. shooed mi out of bed at 6am on a sunday mornin for breakfast.. cryin overnite coz of tat tiny winy little ting..

but i noe tat tingz can realli realli neva be the same again.. we'll juz be frenz.. i juz hope that if we were to part one day, i'll be part of ur memories.. coz u'll be part of mine...

and remember our promise, u will attend my weddin even if u're not my groom.. xD

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2:57 PM

another boring weekend..

i practically did nothin today.. ok.. mayb for the chem ws... i realli wanna sit down & mug.. but i juz dun have the mood to do so.. if i had a choice, i would choose to drop out of school now.. though i dunno wat can i do...

prelims iz 3weeks away!!!!! i 'm not even half thru my revision for a single subject.. for sure i will flunk physics, geo, combine humans, amath & eng.. i onli have 7 sub.. and i'm gonna flunk 5.. OMG!!! isn't it betta if i drop out???

went for dinner with husna.. and i bought 5 more chocolate eclaire!!!! i bet they will be all gone tomorrow.. but nvm.. can buy summore.. coz it iz meant to be shared wit my happy family..

once again.. HAPPY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY EVELYN!!!!! xD

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11:27 AM

oh ya! i met ms oniatta yday!!! [i'm still used to call her ms] she looked so haggard.. wasted.. =xX.. i missed her!!!!

my day was boring!!! did my physics & cleared my flies.. wonder how am i gonna finish studyin all the subjects before prelims.. i have NO LIFE!!!

juz read my past entries.. bring back loads of memories.. esp the last week of june.. yaRxz... i'm back to the old me... the one who doesn't noes how to take care of herself.. jk kor iz hookin mi up at pubs.. xp

galz.. looked out for ur hubby.. before the flirty bitch hooks him up.. i'm now the flirty, bitchy slut..

i scare of lonely.. and i'm lonely.. lonely nitez...

HAPPY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY EVELYN.. xD

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3:07 PM

nth much happened today..

fell asleep in the library while doin work.. and my sweetie pie didn't come today.. awwww.. i noe u're busy.. xp

can i be one of those 400 odds people.. i wish to be.. DUN FIGHT WITH MI!!!!!!! i fear for my eng.. how to pass liddat?? i am hopin to get a B4 for eng.. can i? Mmmmm...

i often feels that i open up to people too much.. they juz neva open up to mi..

i noe i'm silly, foolish & stupid.. should not have done wat i did.. i should blame myself for havin a bad day.. not anione else.. coz itz all MY fault.. u've got ur dream..

the oral exams are oral.. i dun need my voice animore.. my refrigerator iz filled up wit chocolates & ice-cream.. my room is filled up with packets & packets of chips!!! nowaways i'm havin cravings for cakes, ice-creams and bread.. i bought 5 chocolate eclaire yday.. i'm left with none.. boo~.. i'm gonna get more.. xp..

my voice iz not gonna recover if diz goes on.. notti evelyn.. "i dun care~"

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3:57 PM

the eng oral didn't came out easy.. i can feel all the butterflies durin amath period..

durin the 10mins, i didn't know how to prepare the picture.. and i got even more nervous.. after the 10mins.. i went to the waitin place.. onli for a shortshort while like 30s... and i could literally hear my heart beatin.. aRghxz!!!!!!!!!

my day was rather spoiled.. the oral didn't came out well.. i was hopin to see you.. but i didn't.. and my day was even more spoiled by HIM for not being appreciative.. i'm so silly..
silly, bitchy evelyn..

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1:57 PM

i simply cant do the eng mock paper.. dunno wat was i tinkin.. but i juz cant tink of aniting to write..

the semi-finals of project superstar was today.. left wit kelvin & jun yang.. jun yang iz gonna be the winner sumhow.. but i like all the songs kelvin sang today.. gu dan bei ban qu, heaven knows & tong hua.. sumhow it was veriveri touchin wen he sang the songs.. i cried..

i'm takin my O'level eng oral tml!!!!! wit this horrible voice!!!!!!!!!

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1:27 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE PIE.. though i noe u wont be readin diz.. or u did browse thru before??? hope u're enjoyin ur day..

finalli went to the doc today.. nothin much.. juz medication.. hope i can speak properly by thursday..
i wan mudpie!! i wan chocolate fondue!!! i wan strawberry delight!!!

月亮在你的眼睛　太陽在我心

現在我唱這首歌　嗚　只為你

想把所有煩惱都忘掉　做不做得到

你明白我心在燃燒　因為你　因為你

哦　為你

你心中的話我全都想聽　能不能相信

所有的夢裡全都是你　會不會停息

和你一起是否不會再放棄

你的心裡有沒有秘密　我分不清不要在意

只想為　想為你寫一首歌

寫一首歌　都是你　嗚

月亮在你的眼睛　太陽在我心

現在我唱這首歌　哦　只為你

想把所有煩惱都忘掉　做不做得到

你明白我心在燃燒　因為你　因為你

為你　為你　嗚

oh love's in the air, it's everywhere

everyone can see, everyone can feel

that love's in the air, it doesn't matter where

everyone agrees, love is all we need

when the moon falls in your eyes

i know the sun has set

the fire still burns within me

since the day we met

i know my heaven would be so complete

you could make it real

i won't let this chance go by

i can see, i can feel you

when the moon falls in your eyes

i know the sun has set

the fire still burns within me, within me

月亮在你的眼睛　太陽在我的心

現在我唱這首歌只為你

Americas Top Model <3

12:27 PM

my voice iz realli terrible.. horrigible... goSh.. who can save mi!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?

i can cough till tkh asked mi to go to the ladies.. i wanted to ask for permission.. but how to.. wateva.. i coughed till cry.. tatz how bad it is.. how to tk my oral liddat.. haix..

there'z alwaz sunshine & rainbow after rain..

u make mi wanna lala!

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9:37 AM

diz week end iz like two days in the coffin... God damn boring.. aniway i oso neva find aniting to do.. loLx..

got hangover frm fri nite.. had to dragged myself out of bed to go to sch on sat mornin for oral practise.. did nothin at all.. waste my time onli..

since then i did NOTHIN.. i merely rot at home... coughin like crazy.. i'm coughin into the graveyard..

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1:17 PM

i did not get my A.. got a B3.. i did not jump.. but i brokedown..

everione iz sayin itz alritez.. there'z 2nd chance.. dun u all understand tat i dowan tat 2nd chance..

i did wateva i could to console myself.. breakdown.. went east coast.. cry.. run.. sit.. shout.. scream.. wateva u can name.. went tm.. bought wateva i could.. i'm tellin everione i'm alritez.. i told mummy and jiejie i gonna get an A in my nov. paper.. but diz iz wat u all see and hear..
a mask implanted can neva be removed..

even chinese i oso get b3.. wat am i gonna get for the other 6 sub.. dun say that i can use the other 6 sub.. if i cant use chinese.. there's no other sub for mi to use.. since my chinese already get B3.. there'z no more hope for mi..

itz neva easy goin thru setbacks alone..

I AM FREAKINGLY PISSED!!!!!!!!
i'm gonna party, get tipsy, high & drunk tonite..

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7:15 PM

tml iz the release of O'level chinese results!!!!!!!!!!! oh goSh!!!!! plz give mi my AAAAAAAA... i'm gonna jump & breakdown & wateva if i dun get it.. as if i realli will.. mayb??? haha...

my day was brighten up coz of U.. and u gave mi hope for tml.. though ur words wasn't realli that encourangin.. kekex.. smiling to sleep tonite..

little gal had not seen him for long.. wonderin how he'z been doin..
before she could take another step, she saw sumone smilin at her from one corner.. itz HIM! they sat down and had a short chat.. a real short one.. how she wished that time could juz stop at that moment.. the words of encouragement & concern went rite into her heart.. she could hear her heart beatin faster and faster.. and she was grinin from ear to ear.. itz time for him to go.. he said bye and gave a pat on her little head..

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1:27 PM

i was supposed to mug yday and today.. but i didn't mug yday coz i was tooo sick and weak.. but today.. i didn't mug too.. coz i was too tired.. and i slept thru.. aRghx!!!!!

i hope to get my A1 tml.. can i??? i realli wan it.. i'm gonna breakdown if i dun.. but i have a feelin that i wont.. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

終於作了這個決定　別人怎麼說我不理

只要你也一樣的肯定

我願意天涯海角都隨你去

我知道一切不容易

我的心一直溫習說服自己

最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣　來面對流言蜚語

只要你一個眼神肯定　我的愛就有意義

我們都需要勇氣　去相信會在一起

人潮擁擠我能感覺你　放在我手心裡

你的真心

如果我的堅強任性　會不小心傷害了你

你能不能溫柔提醒　我雖然心太急

更害怕錯過你

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1:57 PM

i'm stuck at home wit fever on national day.. itz sooooo boring.. 090802- performin at kallang.. 090803- near kallang stadium watchin fireworks.. 090804- performin at kallang stadium.. 090805- stuck at home watchin ndp..

how i wish it could be like last yr.. not the performin part.. but the part where sumone would bring mi out for.. to watch fireworks?? mayb..

wen i'm lonely.. wen i need sumone to accompany mi.. wen i need sumone to be dere for mi.. itz alwayz those that hasn't contact mi but still cares lotz for mi.. itz the both of u.. the past few nitez.. be it on the phone.. sms.. or out at pasir ris.. accompanyin mi home.. tuckin mi into bed..

my bro had a cravin for pizza.. so we had pizza for dinner.. yummy.. we had the cheesy lava.. quite nice aRhxz.. kekex.. i grade my bro 9/10.. that 0.1 iz wen he iz irritatin and blablabla.. wen i slept till 2pm today.. he sumhow knew sumting was wrong and came into my room to see mi.. though itz not a big deal or wat.. but it shows he cares.. =D..

mr siao condutor the choir for ndp.. i didn't see it.. husna told mi.. kekex.. i missed the dayz wen mr siao conducted.. though i've already stepped down.. but i still miss the dayz wen he conducts us or took us for outdoor..

如果沒有遇見你　我將會是在那裡

日子過得怎麼樣　人生是否要珍惜

也許認識某一人　過著平凡的日子

不知道會不會　也有愛情甜如蜜

任時光匆匆流去　我只在乎你

心甘情願感染你的氣息

人生幾何　能夠得到知己

失去生命的力量也不可惜

所以我求求你　別讓我離開你

除了你我不能感到一絲絲情意

如果有那麼一天　你說即將要離去

我會迷失我自己　走入無邊人海裡

不要什麼諾言　只要天天在一起

我不能只依靠　片片回憶活下去

i admit that i still care...

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1:57 PM

haven blogged for a couple of dayz.. coz i've been hangin out.. too tired and too lazy to blog by the time i'm home..

finalli had the galz day out on fri.. =D.. they got the dress they wanted.. but not mi.. boo~ though i did try two gowns frm danial yan.. but.....

met up wit my buddies on sat nite.. caught "weddin crusher".. hilarious i would say.. =D.. and met up wit jk korkor after tt..

it was shoppin day on sun!! met up wit baobei ONLY!!! no bf.. yeahx.. shop and shop and shop.. went to try dresses.. had an eye on one of the dress frm perfect in black..

and mon!!! national day celebration... there was hanna drawin competition... and mr anwari drew on my hand.. heeZ.. went town wit band galz after tat.. caught "be wit you".. coz couldn't get tix for "charlie & chocolate factory.. and we went to shop for dresses too.. diz time i did saw one black dress frm danial yan.. rushed home after the movie and met up wit vin korkor in town again.. went to get wat i wanted.. had dinner wot him and he had to go off for clubbin.. IDIOT.. and i met up wit jk korkor again.. heeZ.. went to pasir ris park to chill.. and he cycled mi.. kekex.. 1st time sumone cycle mi siax.. heeZ.. and he cycled mi home after tt too.. loLx..

but guess wat.. i realised i'm down wit fever after i got home.. boo~.. i hardly had the energy to change to get onto bed.. the feelin iz horrible..

I WANNA BE WIT YOU..

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7:07 AM

WEE!!!! tml iz friday!!! yeahx!!! but it oso means tt one week lesser to my prelims.. goShh...

aniway.. i'm real real sick.. my voice iz soo sooo sooooo horrible.. itz like soo embrassin to keep sneezin and coughin in the audi wen everione iz doin their test sooo quietly.. and iz oso soooo embrassin to fall asleep in tan kee hoe'z class and got woken up by sumone who shouted "fire!! fire!!!" quite an embrassin day laRxz..

i'm regrettin.. should have bought the digital cam at the beginnin of the yr.. damn.. now tt i wanna use one.. dun have the chance.. coz it doesn't belongs to mi..

galz day out tml plz!!!!

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1:27 PM

my voice iz gettin from bad to worse?? do u tink so?? haha..

DAMN!!! my prelim eng oral results SUX!!! and my o'level eng oral iz like 2weeks away?? how to get good results siax.. damn..

everi teacher iz commentin on mi being sick.. esp vincent tan.. muaahaha.. pai sei.. i was holdin a tissue.. and he asked mi wy i sick for so long.. but actualli today no flu.. but i was wipein my pimple.. xD..

guess wat.. for my population test i got 1/14 for page1 and 8/9 for page 2.. which adds up to 9/25.. boohoo~

time realli flies yeahx..

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12:47 PM

today oso nth much happen laRxz hoRxz.. had geog test.. hard ehx..

after geog i immediately ran out of audi coz i need the toilet urgently.. kekex... den went out of school liaox.. by then, sumone told mi had to stay back for lesson.. but it was too late as lesson had already started.. so i decided to juz leave.. not i dowan to go lesson one aRhxz.. i realli didn't noe..

so went parkway wit dagian to buy famous amous & had lunch.. reached home, took a nap at 5.30.. wanted to wakey to do work at 7.. but wen i open my eyes.. it was 9pm.. kekex...

"dun tok to mi.. u'll be like tokin to a log".. kekex.. ttz wat i told my bro.. coz i hardly have ani voice..

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1:47 PM

i screwed both my chem and physics paper..

and tml i'm gonna screw my geo paper.. boohoo~

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10:17 AM

I DIDN'T GET TO WATCH "be with you" yday.. boohoo~! all YOUR fault.. *blaHx*

went to trim my hair, pierce my nose and went to shop.. muahahahah.. went to jean yip at ps.. the people there veri nice.. kekex.. esp the one who helped mi to wash my hair and the other one who helped mi to blow my hair.. heeZ.. i went to pierce my nose and the person forgot to put the lotion.. luckily i managed to stop him.. *phew*..

went to watch "the island".. okok laRxz.. den went to meet vin korkor.. tink he waited for mi like for 45mins?? oops.. sorry.. den went to bedok85 and eat and tok.. tok until abt 3.30 den go home.. heeZ.. tat iz saturday nite!!! not suppose to be home early.. kekex.. but i tink itz been like ages since i got home in the mornin le.. heeZ..

next week iz full of test.. oh goSh!!!

happi birthday darlin..

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4:27 AM